“Last night I had the strangest sensation.
Falling slowly but in actuality,
I was stationary, in the same location.”
Hello there! Just a quick update to tell you about a weird feeling I had last night whilst led in bed, I started to write that first sentence and the next too came to me so thought I would just put it in quotes and it could be a nice little ice breaker for this here blog post.
But yeah, I had a weird sensation last whilst led in bed (not the falling sensation which that short ditty refers to). It was the feeling that someone had climbed on to my bed and settled next to me. Let me help you picture the scene.
I rearranged my room last night at silly o’clock (that is a real time shh) and I was tired from only a small amount of sleep the night before so by the time I got in bed I was pretty drained, and I felt miserable for no explainable reason. I was just very teary which is unfortunate. I put on my headphones and had some slow music playing (Justin Timberlake’s new album (which by the way is amazing (No seriously, go listen to it))).
And then I had the sensation of my matress dipping as if to suggest someone had climbed on to and shuffled up to my side and was now lying next to me. The sensation felt so real and the room was so dark and I was so so tired that I was no longer sure it was just my mind interpreting other things and making them into something I wanted (someone next to me to comfort me in my sadness). It felt so real that I actually reached out and patted down my bed to see if there was indeed anything tangible there.
I then felt a small kiss on my neck and some breathing in my ear then I felt what I believed was someone exiting the bed, the mattress returning to how it should have felt with just one person in the bed. In its place a sense of loneliness rushed in to fill the void and the misery was overwhelming.
Now, I’m pretty sure this wasn’t a dream because I’m pretty certain that I was aware and I paused the music on my iPod and then resumed it after this had all happened.
All this is probably explained by the mattress springs pinging about after I had moved the bed and mattress around, but it felt so real. So tangible. Like I was no longer alone, when in fact I was just as alone as I always feel.
I know this has been a pretty glum post so here is a picture of a cat: